Only the Beginning

As 2011 comes to an end, I cannot help but to smile. This year has been an incredible journey for me! I started the year in Florida, then moved to Michigan, and now I am ending it in Tennessee. Me, a gypsy soul? Absolutely! Nothing seems to hold this girl back from what she wants in life.

The clock now ticks to the end of another year around the sun, yet this journey has only just begun. There is a path that lies before me that I cannot wait to take my first step on. I have a list of resolutions, which I cannot guarantee that will be fulfilled or followed, but I see them as goals of which to place my aim upon. I try to keep in mind that the only one who is standing in my way of goals and dreams is myself. I will jump into this new year scared, but knowing that it is a necessity to find the courage to keep pressing on. There is something wonderful waiting for me out there and I just cannot wait to find it!

And so, with open arms, I welcome you 2012. Even though this is considered an ending, I will see it as only the beginning! Each day, with a dream in my heart, I will keep pressing forward unknowingly! May this be the best year yet!

Fuzzy Socks and Family Time

During this holiday season, I was blessed to spend it in the beautiful state of Tennessee. Being in need of some time to get away and do some thinking, I packed my bags and headed south. It was such a wonderful time for me to just sleep, relax, think, write and do some research. I guess you could say that I was on another quest to find myself. Something about this trip changed me in a way. I don't know exactly what it was though. It could be that I may have had a slight glimpse into what direction my life could take, and I liked it! But, that's going off on a different story.

After spending three weeks in Tennessee, my family came down to join me for Christmas. As we all sat around opening gifts, I was reminded that I was very blessed to have never had a Christmas without a family, food, or a few gifts under the tree. Throughout my life, I have always had a so many reasons to be thankful. This Christmas, I am extra thankful!

Having to keep the secret of a pregnancy in the family was not an easy thing to do, but when word was out, it was worth the wait! Here is the story:

When we decided to start opening gifts, the first one was handed to my nephew and my dad. My nephew, being seventeen months old, needed help opening the first gift. So, my dad helped him open it. It was a book entitled "I'm a Big Brother." As the title was read out loud, a hush fell over the room. "Surprise!" someone yelled. Squeals were let out and hugs were being handed out. It was amazing to witness!

These were gifts from my parents! Think what you will, but I will never be too old to wear a shirt with Mickey Mouse on it! Also, I'm a HUGE Centerville fan, so I was excited to receive that shirt as well! I also received two gift cards to my favorite stores, an adorable coat from a good friend of mine, and two pairs of fuzzy socks, which I have always been obsessed with. It was truly a wonderful Christmas indeed! And now, as I sit here and write, wearing my fuzzy socks and enjoying family time, I am thankful! And I will, until the next Christmas and on, keep pressing forward unknowingly!

This Girl's Writer's Block

These past several days, I've been meaning to write a blog post. Most of the time I have no idea what it is that I want to write about. Then, out of the blue, my mind is floods with all sorts of things that I want to jot down. So, this post is to make up for these past couple weeks and to update you on all the ins and outs of my life lately.

Yes, I have STILL been doing a lot of thinking. Been making mental notes and weighing out pros and cons on what direction I might choose to take this upcoming year. Here is what has been happening recently. It started out with an advertisement on my facebook page. It was advertising a photography school here in Nashville. I tried to resist, but my curiosity got the best of me. I clicked on it and did some research. It actually seemed like a good place to study seeing that the focus of the school is the media arts. And to get my degree in only two years just astounds me! And, it would be amazing to study photography in one of the most beautiful states in the country! As the excitement of it filled me to the brim, I decided to do some more research. This time, it would circle around the serious state of my wanting to study here. Yes, I started looking for apartments. I was shocked to find so many available and at fantastic prices! Now, I'm not very picky when it comes to living quarters. As long as it's clean, I'm OK with that. Plus, I'm one who loves to keep herself busy, so I'm hardly ever "home". And, as long as I'm spending most of my time behind the lens of a camera, my living conditions would be the least of my thought process.

But then, BAM! Reality!

I know, I know. In a couple weeks I will be heading back to Michigan and starting my 2012. I would be lying if I told you that I am going to welcome this new year without fear, doubt, or uncertainty. Sure, I'm excited about it, but not knowing what will happen next is what worries me the most. I'm one who likes to have a plan. And as of right now, I don't have a plan. I'm just going to take it day-by-day and hopefully soon, I'll be able to return to Tennessee in pursuit of the beginning of my photography career.

As of right now, this girl is suffering from writer's block in many ways, but mostly my life. And as I sit here with a blank page before me, I play with the pen in my hand trying desperately to write something down. Nothing is coming to my mind.

Until something wonderful scratches out of my pen and into the next chapter of my life, I will keep pressing forward unknowingly.

New Found Me!

As many of you may know, I can be quite a fickle person. Of course, I dream big and want to do just about everything with my life, it makes the "fickeleness" creep up and pounce on me many times. Needless to say I keep something on me that I can write a new idea in (be it a notebook, my iPod, or my cell phone)...hold on. I'm writing something in my iPod as we speak...

Ok, where was I? Oh yes. Blogging!

Having time to think a lot can be very dangerous; especially when one has an imagination such as mine. It can also be confusing, frustrating, exciting, and even devastating. You: "Kelly, where are you going with this??"  Me: "Hey, I'm getting there!"

When one reaches the age of twenty-one, one should know what to do with his/her life. At least, that's what I always thought. But in my case, that hasn't happened yet. I thought I had it all figured out, but I don't. In ways, it's thrilling! In other ways, it's terrifying!

So, I sit and think, and think, and think some more 'til I give myself a headache. Every day I find something new about myself and it's like a new found me! Now, I'm not saying that I, for instance, want to be a firefighter one day and an astronaut the next. No no no. That's not how it works with me. What does happen is that I have many possibilities which weigh on the scale of who I am, tipping and spinning me in every direction possible. It does make me dizzy quite a bit, but it's quite a fun ride just not knowing what big explosion of an idea I can come up with next. And it's not just in my future career, but also in the brand of my first car, what steroe-typical job I want to pay for college, to where I want to move when I move out, and if I want to live in the city or the country. So many options, so little time!

I have been told that life is unpredictable, and I believe that in a way. But, in other ways, that's not all truth. I have had certain things planned out in my life that happened the way I hoped. I don't think everyone is completely blind to what the future holds. After all, "If you aim for nothing, you'll hit it every time."-unknown
I just try to take it one day at a time. I don't limit myself to anything, embrace the opportunities that come my way, and leap over the obstacles standing in my path to a happy life. I don't know if I will soon figure out exactly what my life will hold, but hopefully it will be clear someday soon. Until then, I will keep pressing forward unknowingly!