Wednesday, January 25, 2012

A Glimpse of Disney Past

I do not remember where or who I heard it from, but I was once told that writing is like opening a vein and bleeding onto the page. Of course, being one who is not easily tricked into believing, I tried writing myself and have found that this is true. What I am writing should, in a way, reveal something about me. It should be personal, like a little piece of me living on that page.  When I immerse myself into the writer's way of thinking, it can be difficult to start writing exactly what it is that I to portray. To put on the page the picture that is set before me can be both difficult and frustrating. I can see it and I know that it is there in all its beauty, but to have it slide down my arm and reveal itself on the blank page before me is the hardest part. Remembering moments past, well now that is another story.

As most of you know, I have embarked on a long, rocky journey of writing a memoir of my nine magical months at Disney. Inspired by a recent published memoir that was given to me for my birthday, I thought, "Well, it cannot be too hard to write down stories of my past." I started off strong as inspiration was flooding into my mind. Shortly after beginning, I was at a blank-completely at a loss of what I should do to continue writing. In a moment of desperation, I contacted the author of this recent memoir that had me hooked from the first page. Several days went by and I remained positive in hopes that my memories would once again return to me. Then, I received an e-mail for this published author. Squealing in excitement, I opened the message and read it slowly, taking mental notes of everything she said. I printed it out and stuck it into my notebook of my Disney writings. Often I find myself looking back over her words when I am drawing a blank and need a rush of inspiration to sweep over me.

Through much deliberation, writing, writing, writing and rewriting, I shall now reveal to you some of my writings int he works. This is the day that I found out that I was going to be a Disney cast member. What a remarkable day that was!

It was like any other Saturday. I had planned to sleep in, do laundry and catch-up on homework. I got a text from a friend confirming our lunch plans for that afternoon. I rolled out of bed and slipped into the most casual outfit I could find. I grabbed my phone and headed out the door. As we sat at the table enjoying a casual conversation and cold-cut sandwiches, a text came through from my mom saying that I had received an envelope from Walt Disney World. A look of astonishment swept over my face as I begged my friend to excuse me from the table for just a minute. Caught up in my excitement, I clenched my phone and sprinted to the lobby. I quickly called my mom as I felt my heart trying desperately to escape my chest. As my phone started ringing, I took a deep breath and tried my best to remain calm. "If it's meant to be, it will happen. Don't get your hopes up." were the thoughts going through my head. When I heard my mom on the other end of the phone, I immediately begged her to read it to me. "Well, the first word is, 'Congratulations!'" At that moment, every emotion that I had been bottling up over the past several weeks came pouring out of me. I was sobbing, dancing, laughing and screaming much to the dismay of everyone around me. I was finally on my way to becoming a Disney cast member, and as of that moment, there was nothing standing in my way!


When I started this project, I tried to set a few goals. For instance, I want it to be long enough to where it would be considered a "book." As far as everything goes from this point, I am continuously reminded of those magical moments and those long nights at work as a cast member. It was not an easy journey, but every step was worth it. I try to consider this a project that will never be completely finished in hopes that it will be polished and molded into something that might be worthy of this world's realm of published books. Do I intend to get it published? At this point, no. It's just for friends, family, and for a way for me never forget my year as a employee to the mouse. In the future, I will keep you posted about the current and future steps in this journey. Until then, have a magical day!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Strong mind. Strong will. Strong me.

After finishing my Disney life, I was at a total loss of where this bumpy road called "my life" would take me next. Hoping by some miracle another opportunity would come along and take me to another far-off place, I grew tired of waiting. I would always wrestle with the fact that it is time for me to grow up and it's time for me to start living the life I am destined to have.

Just recently, a strength came over me that I have never had before. It was like a cool breeze breaking through the hot summer air. Something changed in me. Although I do not know what caused it or how it happened so suddenly, it was truly an amazing feeling. Fear and doubt no longer held on to the corners of my mind, and I felt...free!

Now knowing what I must do, I am determined to do it with all my strength. I have found that one of the greatest feelings in life is conquering a fear, and no longer being afraid. I have everything in me that I need, and I just need to go for it. I will not waste another day hoping and wishing, but rather working hard with determination under my belt and a strong will to get me through. I will succeed!